Virginian in Hiding

Coming out...?

2008-01-09T16:35:00.000-08:00

Well...well...well...
as it is pretty obvious from the name of the blog, I have not come out to my guardian ( I do not live with my parents). After my first crush, however, I came out to two of my closest friends. I didn't really know how to say it, but I knew that both of my best friends were supportive, and actually encouraging me to tell my guardian. I don't want to rock the boat though, at least not now... Well, one of my friends knew I had looked at gay porn before, so she already kinda knew that I may have been gay. My other friend is bisexual and she is pretty much accepting of anything--she wouldn't care if I was purple (neither of them would--they like me for me). I was in one of my classes with a person a class ahead of my (he was a junior at the time) and one day, it just hit me like a bat--I liked this guy--a lot. I later found out he had a girlfriend, and I was nauseated/disgusted with myself for a very long time. I told my first friend how I felt, and she was there to encourage me to be me--regardless of what Christians say. I accept that I am or may be gay, but I have not completely shut the door to women. For some odd reason, women with short hair and strong faces turn me on...I am here and maybe my true love may be too--I'm just living life as me, and thats the best I can do. On another note, I have been looking for new ways to promote the blog, and if I can get some HTML help, I was going to post a link to a coming out site, and they in turn would link to me. wish me luck! send me an email (virginianinhiding@gmail.com)
Until Later,
VIH

PARAMORE!!!

2008-01-02T11:45:00.000-08:00

Well, not being the average closet gay comes with some kind of weirdness attached...
I LOVE the band Paramore (Alternative/Rock)
I used to only like synth-pop and techno, but Paramore ROX!!!
Besides that, nothing much is new, except no one is reading this crap.
Drop me a line,
VIH

Don't Let Me Get Me

2007-12-30T15:09:00.000-08:00

Apologies to P!nk for using one of her song titles...
As most male suicides speak, many of them are related to gay men killing themselves in shame, self-pity, or a sickness for leading a double life. I've been there. I've done that. The worst part? I played it off that I was only "wondering" about what "it" was like (being gay). I still lead a double life--and here I am, publishing this blog. I wonder if the general public even cares about me, my struggles, and what I share with the minority of men (men that are gay). With the holiday season just passed, and New Years coming very soon, it almost sickens me to see couples together, knowing that if I had my perfect companion, I would be an outcast. A life of celibacy? IDK
Later,
VIH

A Day In The Life Of...

2007-12-29T14:59:00.000-08:00

Well, today I tried to find more ways to promote this blog--any comments/suggestions would be greatly appreciated...
I guess this comes with the part of being a Virginian In Hiding, a person in hiding, ME in hiding...
I'm trying to contact others who may understand me--for example William Sledd...
Hopefully SOMEONE understands what it would be for me and what it is like for others to constantly be subjected to words like "fag." I do not understand why being gay is equal to committing social suicide. People claim to be open minded, yet racism and judgment based on sexuality still are prevalent in today's society. This sucks.
More Later,
VIH
Virginian In Hiding

Let's Begin...

2007-12-28T13:12:00.000-08:00

Lets begin... who am I?
I am a Virginian in Hiding. Born in the grand (and first) state of VA, I was taken away from there to come live in the state I now reside in now--Illinois. Now that everyone knows where I live and why I'm a Virginian, let's get to the hiding part...
I guess we could start off with all of the contradictions in my life...
I like Synth-Pop, Alternative, and Classical music.
I like every animal (especially dogs) but I abhor cats.
My mom abused me for years, but now that she has Alzheimer's disease, I take care of and love her.
Now the kicker...
I am both a Christian and gay.
Well, now that every insecure and ignorant guy has stopped reading...(I am a guy)
My whole family is Christian, and I would definitely be dubbed the black sheep of the family if anyone found this out...
Mostly they already hate me for thinking that Abraham Lincoln is a tyrant and that prayer has no place in public schools....
I don't know if anyone can see my REAL email address (hopefully not), but send me an email (virginianinhiding@gmail.com) with any comments or just to let me know that people are reading...
More Later,
VIH